Falling is scary. Falling in any form is scary, but I think falling in love scares me the most. Handing over your heart to someone and trusting them not to break it, when they do break it you have to pick up what pieces there are, try to super glue it back together and hope that it holds, hope that it's whole enough for the next time.
After Jason, I wasn't sure if I ever wanted to fall in love again. After thinking I'd spend the rest of my life with someone, having plans for the future, then watching them slowly crumble until there was nothing left. I didn't know if I wanted to trust anyone that much anymore. Then, I met Matt.
I'm finding that there are good guys out there, that I can learn to trust. I'm falling really hard for this guy. I want to be around him so much more that I can be, and I miss him not long after I've left. The best days of my life are those I get to spend with him. It's crazy.
And I can't help but think that it might just keep getting better!
